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Frozen by Flames


I sat on the edge of her bed and watched as she artfully drew on her Cleopatra-like tails with eye-liner – her signature look, while she drew in with deep inhalation on a Player’s Light cigarette before attempting to mirror the task on her left eye.


I continued to stare at my mother in awe, admiring her beauty along with her as I watched her reflection in the mirror. With all the primping and skillful artwork she performed to prepare for her usual day out with friends at the racetrack, the excitement she felt could be measured by the amount of cigarettes she smoked before completing her task. The phone would ring, and she’d step over to the night table where the beige princess phone rested and picked up the receiver, leaving yet another cigarette burn down in a steady coil of ash until the flame was extinguished.

After her call ended, the plans for the afternoon were laid out with her fancy friends, she lit another one and visited it with her lips intermittently in between trying on several outfits in search of one that may have suited her mood for that day.

After I’d complimented my mother on the flashy outfit she’d chosen for her day out, I went downstairs to play with my brother Rory. The day was a hot one so Rory and I decided to stay inside the air- conditioned house and play on our day off from school thanks to a teacher’s PD day (professional development day off). My younger siblings were in nursery and kindergarten so Rory and me pretty much had the house to ourselves other than our maid Dolly who was doing her chores and paid to keep an eye out on us.

I watched in adornment out the living room window as my mother stepped into her big white Cadillac Coupe de Ville, dreaming about the day I might too be beautiful and wear fancy clothes and have a fancy social life.

After closing the curtains once she drove off, I called for Rory who was in the basement playing as I walked through the grand foyer to the basement stairway to go join him but was stopped in my tracks by the smell of smoke. I looked up past the spiral staircase to the second floor where billowing clouds of smoke were filling the hallway, coming from my mother’s room and I screamed – except I didn’t scream because no sound would come from my mouth.

Rory patted up the stairs from the basement in response to my earlier calling of his name and saw me standing like a frozen statue in the middle of the foyer fixated on the amount of smoke I saw coming from the stairway. Rory didn’t lose his voice and screamed loud for Dolly to warn her about the fire while at the same time screaming at me to run outside with him. I couldn’t run. I couldn’t scream. I was in shock.

Rory grabbed my arm and shook me as he pulled me out the front door. We stood on the driveway together staring at the front of the house waiting – waiting for what?

I didn’t hear the sound of fire engines and as I worried with wonder what was going to happen to my house, Dolly opened the front door cursing under her breath in her Jamaican tongue – something about careless smoking. Then she came out to give us a hug and invited us back in, informing us she had put out the fire which had started by a cigarette left burning that fell out of the ashtray and kept burning on my mother’s makeup table. The black soot and fire marks left – only inches from an electrical outlet.

I called my dad who was at work to let him know what had transpired. He dashed home to make sure we were okay and to check out the state of the damage from the fire. Then he went back to work, and Rory and I went back to playing.

Mom didn’t come home for dinner that night. There were no cell phones back in the mid-late sixties. We ordered pizza and ate in the family room and watched TV together with Dad then we went to sleep. I heard the keys in the door later that night and the door close when my mother returned. And I heard the usual muffled sounds coming from my parents’ bedroom. I supposed my father may have been filling her in on the day’s events after she witnessed the damaged state of her bedroom. And the conversation grew heated as I supposed there were more arguments had over the damaged state of their relationship.

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  1. Golden memories, where would we be without them?

    1. Lol Jaye, not sure about golden, but let’s say I don’t long for those days. 🙂

  2. A powerful, heart-breaking piece Deb…I wonder how a mother could be so self-centred! Some memories haunt, this is one of those! Thanks for sharing my friend. Hugs.

    1. Thanks Balroop. It’s funny how certain memories just stick! <3

  3. You do a wonderful job, Debby, showing how hard this situation was on the children in the family. It’s easy to see how it takes a lifetime of reframing childhood experiences to make any kind of sense of it. 🙁

    1. Thanks Diana. Retrospect puts a whole new perception on things. 🙂 x

  4. Hi Debby – this does take me back to Hollywood days … and perhaps a detective story … but if it’s real – how very difficult for you … I’m not surprised the memory stuck … cheers Hilary

    1. Thanks Hilary. It was real alright! 🙂

  5. A lovely piece of writing. I assume that it is based on a true event which makes it even more powerful. Life is not easy for many children.

    1. Thanks Robbie. And yes, all my stories are from my own experiences. I can’t seem to write in the fiction genre. 🙂

  6. Our childhood experiences never leave us, do they Debby? Like you, I have many I’d rather forget. Thanks for sharing this powerful piece of writing.

    1. Thanks Stevie. I’m sure our childhoods had a lot to do with our becoming writers too. 🙂

  7. Amazing how kids adapt. Often, despite all odds, they thrive. Excellent story, Deb.

    1. Thanks Jacqui. I guess I’m living proof of adapting, lol. 🙂

  8. You wrote about this painful memory so well that I held my breath as I read about the fire. I was so afraid you would get in trouble, even though it had nothing to do with you. Thanks for sharing this incredible intense piece of memoir, Debby.

    1. Thanks so much Pam. I’m glad the story drew you in – even though it wasn’t a pretty story. 🙂 x

      1. Not a pretty story, but pretty neat that you can write about it now so full of detail and insight into what you went through. <3

        1. Thanks so much Pam. 🙂 <3

  9. That had me very worried. Thank goodness for Dolly!

    1. Thanks so much Janet. Yes, thankful for tender mercies. 🙂

  10. The resilience of children is remarkable, especially of those neglected and abused. Terrific post, Deb ❤

    1. Thank you T. We take a lickin’ and keep on tickin’ – like a Timex LOL <3

      1. And Goddess bless us, every one ❤

  11. Wow, Debby. A waking nightmare. What a remarkable and disturbing memory, especially hard because your mom didn’t come home. So glad your brother didn’t freeze, but I understand why you did. You were neglected and left on your own in a way I can’t imagine. You made it through and lived to tell the tale. I’m grateful for that.

    1. Thanks Elaine. You know they say – what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Well a friend came up with – what doesn’t kill you makes you a writer! Good one huh? 🙂

      1. What doesn’t kill you makes you a writer — I like that. Much better than the one I came up with: What doesn’t kill me makes me grumpier, lol.

        This story was riveting. I particularly like your title, Frozen by Flames. I was frozen once, in 1965 when I was 12 years old. But my frozen condition wasn’t caused by flames, it was the sound of a gunshot. Narcissistic parents…

        1. Thanks Linda. I’m glad you like the saying. Don’t let stuff turn your grumpy, get it out on paper ( or the keyboard). 🙂
          Your frozen story sounds horrifying. Isn’t it amazing how the body clams up in retreat when we sense fear – almost dangerous.
          Yes, I’m well acquainted with a narcissistic parent. 🙂

  12. There’s so much here: you and your mother watching her in the mirror, her fastidious need to look perfect, and your love for her followed by the terror of the fire. It’s nicely detailed.

    1. Thanks so much Rob. I appreciate your comment, especially as another child of a narcissist 🙂

      1. They’re awful people who make everyone else responsible for their dishonest behaviors.

        1. Bang on Rob! 🙂

  13. So vivid Debby. So hard when the gift of children is superceded by the love of self. ♥♥

    1. Thanks Sal. So true. <3 xx

  14. Scary. Very scary, on so many levels. You paint a picture of your mom that makes me want to crawl deep under the covers. Well written, Debby!

    1. You understand well Jennie. Thank you. 🙂

      1. You are very welcome, Debby.🙂

  15. I really enjoy reading these memoir bytes, Debby. You have a way with words (… and visited it with her lips intermittently” is my favorite part of this piece) and memories. Your childhood might have been less than ideal – unfortunately – but it provided so many stories to tell! Crazy… yet interesting, intriguing and sometimes enlightening!

    1. Thanks so much Liesbet. And I know what you mean – look how much I get to write about craziness right? LOL 🙂 x

  16. I can understand that memories like those would freeze in your memory. Sometimes it’s those most hurtful memories that remain the strongest. I wonder why that is so.

    1. I’m sure it has much to do with the impact left Norah. 🙂

      1. I guess that’s true, Debby.

  17. I felt like I was right there with you in that house, smelling the smoke for the first time. Your writing is that good, Debby!! I’m glad you were all safe and sound (well, soft of… I know it wasn’t the ideal childhood by any means.. xo)

    1. Thank you so much for your wonderful compliment on my story. I know the subject matter wasn’t uplifting, but it’s a slice of life. <3 xx

      1. You are courageous to share these moments ♥

        1. It’s what I write Christy – memoir. my truth. <3

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