My Sunday Book Review today is on Chuck Jackson’s – What Did I Do? As a memoir writer, I was curious to read Chuck’s book, especially since he dangled weekly carrots on his blog by sharing chapters. Well, good strategy I say to Chuck, because we all know once we get hooked on a book, we don’t want to have to wait a week to read the next chapter!
Chuck takes us back to his childhood where he grew up moving around a lot as his father was active in military. And Chuck’s story takes us into a familiar world where his parents seemed to have a lot to learn about parenting. The emotional abuse Chuck endured by both his parents and the physical abuse from his father’s hand left Chuck wondering what on earth he had done to deserve such treatment.
All Chuck ever wanted was to please his parents and have them love him. What Did I Do? is his recollection of the abuse he received from both his parents. When he saw love and happiness in other families, he wondered why not his? His self-esteem was shattered when they told him he was undeserving to be their son. Convinced it was his fault, he hid the physical beatings until the severity began to be noticed outside the home.
In writing this book, Chuck came out of the darkness to expound on the stigma attached to child abuse. He admitted to the effects of shame, anger, guilt, and depression he and so many others experience. He tells the story of survival where he felt invisible. Experience his desperation for a warm touch and a kind word of praise. Follow Chuck’s story and help answer the question, What Did I Do?
“Wow! What a read—and what a story. This book is so well written, it reads more like a novel. It’s a page turner all right. This story is hard to take only because of the abuse described…” Andrew Joyce, the author of the best-selling novel Redemption
My 5 Star Review:
Jackson takes us back in time into his childhood where he was adopted by his parents at 14 months old. Where one would think adoptive parents would feel so blessed to have a child, this story isn’t one of them. The author opens his heart in his telling without whining or complaining of what he endured, but instead questions – What Did I Do? As we learn about the emotional neglect he suffered along with the physical attacks from his father, the author steals our heart and has us wanting to reach out and just hug the boy.
We get a good look at emotionally bankrupt parents who carry their own demons, which gives us a hint at how they project their own unhappiness in their lives on to poor Bobby (author’ name in the book). This void of love Bobby exists in doesn’t sour his desire to want his parents to love and appreciate him, but rather, disturbs him through life as to why they couldn’t give him any affection. Eventually, Bobby runs away from home with fears that the beatings won’t stop despite the apologies that sometimes come after a consequent attack.
The story gives us insight into not only what the child had to live with growing up and into adulthood, but has us shaking our heads at what on earth went wrong in his parents’ life to make them so self-absorbed and uncaring.
I would highly recommend this book to parents to have a look at what abuse can do to a child through Jackson’s eyes and words, as well as for anyone who has been abused to be inspired by how Jackson handled his life and still came out as a compassionate good person without falling victim to his upbringing and continuing the trend of abuse. #Recommended